questions have come up...

So, I've been working with the work team for the past few days. They are very cool guys and I enjoy spending time with them. However, there just isn't enough work for all of us. Maybe its just bad communication but it is extremely frustrating to stand around waiting for someone to tell you to fetch a level.

Recently, I focused my time on the kids when they're on their breaks and painting a sign, so it's been better.

I'm having an absolutely wonderful time in Grenada but I've not spiritually grown in the way that I was hoping I would. Questions have come up. How can I be a missionary in a completely different culture and place when my faith seems to be so affected by the community or lack of community around me? How can I leave everyone and everything behind to follow Christ when the only time I seem to follow Christ is when I have everyone and everything? Why am I not motivated to read or pray?

I want to depend on Christ alone...